Monday, August 27, 2012

drought

I could never begin to explain what has gone on since I last wrote a post on our blog.   And while this blog has experienced a "drought," our lives our being nourished and refreshed by Jesus' love and redemption.  Every day, I strive to remember that fear and hurt no longer rule our hearts and our home.  Grace rules and we pray for strength to remember what that means for us and how to love each other because He first loved us.
Sounds so simple, doesn't it?  But anyone in love for longer than 20 minutes knows that loving someone when you feel unloved is the farthest from simple as it gets.  That loving someone when you are tired, overwhelmed and quite honestly, just focused on your own needs, is impossible.  Loving when you've been hurt...wow.  And not just by that person, but by others.  And when that hurt has made scars and wounds that you've never shown anyone before.
Psalm 147: 3 says that God heals the brokenhearted and "binds their wounds."  As a nurse, I find this verse's explanation of what God does particularly meaningful.  "Binding" a wound means to make a dressing and cover it- like with gauze and tape.  It doesn't say that the wound will disappear.  The verse says instead of healing our wound, instead of taking the pain away and the memory of how we were hurt, he heals US.  He heals our hearts and leaves the wound, and likely a scar.
I have no idea who reads a blog that rarely gets updated, but if you are reading this and you have been hurt, my prayer for you is that you would know the sweet healing that comes only in trusting in God to be your nurse, your healer.